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. . . I just have this gut feeling that she can't be good news. I was reading Cosmo and it said something along the lines of ". . . if you're gut is telling you something, you should more than likely go with it." It confuses me how it doesn't blatantly state to just "go for it". It kind of leaves it up to you, or the situation. But I believe everything Cosmo says, so I want to go with my gut. Really bad. I love beards more than guts.


I think it just has to do with the fact that I am so insecure about my appearance. It's no fucking pity party, so stop it. I have never really had a problem with myself but recently I'm starting to notice a change. You know how when you're in the 5th grade and you're the only one out of all of your friends that HAS to wear a bra?? Yea, it feels like that.


It feels like my tits are exposed, out and about.


Everyone around me has already grown out of being "20" and is starting to dress like one; an adult that has to dress nice to go to work everyday. . .two; a slut. . . or three; a girl. I for one still dress like a 10 year old boy, and I think it's starting to get to me. I tried wearing a dress on Friday and I felt like such a slut. . . such a naked, sucia, tits exposed, sluh-ta. I want to look like a girl. I feel like Joey tells himself, "Damn this 10 yr. old looking boy I have to have sex with. . . " (I'm sure he doesn't think that) hahaha. I just feel like shit around girls now. I mean, I know I'm good for laughs, I say dirty things at the most appropriate time, and I have nice hair, but I still feel like shit next to any girl.
As long as Joey thinks I'm pretty, that should be enough for me. Right?
I am such a faghag.





I want to buy that Buzz Lightyear iron on but it's $7, and I am a penny pincher. Penny pincher to the M-A-X.

I was filling out a survey today on myspace, had been working on it for the past hour and a half. That whole 'new myspace messenger" was on my screen so it was distracting. When I pushed the button to post it it just went blank. It was all gone. Fuck you Tom, for deep throating my 2-hr-long-survey.


Speaking of deep throating, I have yet to check out gag factor. Joey won't watch porn with me. I think he thinks that it's weird that I don't mind watching porn with him. He's so great :] with or without porn.

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deardilemma
Jun. 10th, 2009 05:59 am (UTC)
you have misused the term 'faghag' like 92 times in the past 8 things that ive read from you.

haha.
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